Lakshmi (Sanskrit:लक्ष्मी, lakṣmī, ˈləkʂmiː) is the Hindu goddess of wealth, fortune, and prosperity (both material and spiritual). She is the wife and active energy (Aadi Shakti) of Lord Vishnu.
I woke up with the feeling that a new energy was ready to be present in my life. I had catapulted into a feverish pursuit to create, construct and ground my business. I'm sure many of you have been at a point of creation where the idea comes, the vision, the clarity, the collaboration, the execution - it takes tremendous effort. I spent the last 2years birthing an idea that came from the depths of my soul when my entire world was falling apart. Or so I thought. Funny how spirit only allows you to see what you are meant to see when you are meant to see it. In my bucket of despair was a failed marriage, the lost desire for my MBA career, detachment to my social circle and interests, and just about everything in my life was spiraling and coming to a pivoting halt. I had no choice but to SURRENDER. I'm not talking about - let's just turn our face to the wind and say, Fuck it. I'm talking about tears burning down my face, knees to the ground, face plant. It was not pretty and I fought it all the way. I fought every angle I could muster, found every excuse in the book and put myself into the hospital, I lost my husband, my career and my friends along the way (or so I thought) and I fell into a deep depression. I've never experienced a darkness so void that it felt like I would spiral into an abyss that would never end....
"Life is meant to move you - just trust it Marni and let it all go" - a voice deep in the bowels of the universe would say to me. That voice, nothing I have ever heard before, brings tears to my eyes just writing that line. "Love yourself, love yourself so much it hurts and breaks your heart into a million pieces," again a vibration and source of energy that was so vast and pure, it was all I could do but to submit. I closed my eyes and I let go, I let the fear in and I let go. I literally forced myself to believe, have faith and sink deep into the resources of my soul for courage.
“What is you are seeking is seeking you.” - RUMI
Dragging my ass out of the deep pit of darkness was probably one of the hardest things I have ever done, besides giving birth naturally twice. That was really a serious commitment of lunacy. It has been an excruitating, emotional torrid, hot, burning rebirth of self. If you were to tell me that this process was like so:
Marni, you're going to have a breakdown and it's going to be like this, you are going to lose your mind, your stability, all sense of self, your friends (or whoever you thought were your friends), your emotions and most importantly what you think is your ego - but you will survive -so just buck up camper and get on with it! I would have said, absolutely not, I will not go on that journey with you. I would rather stick to my horrible life and my misery and pain and wait it out. I would rather sit here, take all this bullshit and negative experiences and convince myself that it's all ok and I am FINE. By the way that means - FUCKED UP, INSECURE NEUROTIC AND EMOTIONAL.
Obviously I wasn't fine, I was literally falling apart, on every level, physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually.
Why am I telling you all this you ask? I'm not really sure, I think that maybe somewhere in these lines you will find some solace, hope and inspiration that it's all a journey and it will all pass. I'm not going to say that you can just wish it all away, but you have to trust that there is a higher power and a higher purpose for your life. Magic is working on your side - you just might not know it yet. Spirit had other plans for me, just like it does for you too. When you are so raw and in the THICK of all the emotions, you think you can't see the light. The reality is that in order for you to see the light, you have to go through the darkness. In order for you to GET OUT, you have GO IN. Holy Moly, stop the press - that takes WORK. You bet your ass it does, lots of work, on all levels and if you think it doesn't - then go ahead and turn the other way - I'm sure you are happy where you are at.
Oh boy, you say, are you serious? Well kinda. Sort of. Yes. The illusion is that you think you can think your way through your emotions, you THINK, you can control and outsmart life, you think you have it all figured out. That's all in illusion. You need to let that shit go. You really aren't in control of anything.
So, when you are facing a difficult emotion, situation, or circumstance that you think is beyond your control - it's because it is. You are only in charge of yourself - your emotions, and your reactions. Little by little you can start to rebuild yourself, but first you need to melt into the experience of that thing they say - SURRENDER. Melt, melt, melt, soften, soften, soften and just let go.
I started by admitting to myself that I needed to survive this. Whatever, "this," was and I needed to chose myself and love myself more then anyone or anything. Even more then my beautiful children. I needed to have what I call, FIERCE DEVOTION TO SELF. So, that's what I did at all costs. I chose myself repeatedly, I would ask myself, "Marni, is this in your highest good?" Not will it make me happy or content. Is it in my highest good? I also put my whole self back on the mat and sat for hours and hours in mediation. Everytime I sat on that mat I would bring everything to that commitment, all the pain, all the hurt, all the disappointment, betrayal, rage and anger - I'd bring it all to the yoga mat too and I would OWN it and I would let it go. I thought, it’s finally happening, I'm being present with myself, I'm really in touch with who I am and what I'm feeling - I can do this. So, I kept doing that, bringing myself to the mat everyday and every chance I could because it was sitting under a cleansing rain from God. Why wouldn't I do that? Devotion was my best friend and yoga saved my life.
Here I sit 2 years later, welcoming in the beautiful energy of Lakshmi, the Hindu Goddess of wealth, fortune, prosperity (both material and spiritual) co-creating the business with other beautiful women who are going to change the world and inspire so many people and I feel so incredibly blessed.
Lakshmi is the goddess of wealth, fortune, power, luxury, beauty, fertility, and auspiciousness. She holds the promise of material fulfillment and contentment. She is described as restless, whimsical yet maternal, with her arms raised to bless and to grant. For centuries Hindus have invoked her thus:
Beautiful goddess seated on a chariot,
Delighted by songs on lustful elephants,
Bedecked with lotuses, pearls and gems,
Lustrous as fire, radiant as gold,
Resplendent as the sun, calm as the moon,
Mistress of cows and horses —
Take away poverty and misfortune
Bring joy, riches, harvest and children.
In the Lakshmi Tantra, the goddess says: “I am inherent in existence. I am the inciter, the potential that takes shape. I manifest myself. I occupy myself with activity and finally dissolve myself. I pervade all creations with vitality, will and consciousness. Like ghee that keeps a lamp burning, I lubricate the senses of living beings with the sap of my consciousness.”
Lakshmi is the divine power that transforms dreams into reality. She is prakriti, the perfect creation: self-sustaining, self-contained Nature. She is maya, the delightful delusion, the dream-like expression of divinity that makes life comprehensible, hence worth living. She is shakti, energy, boundless and bountiful.
To realize her is to rejoice in the wonders of life.
So, I welcome Lakshmi, I don't always try to understand how the universe works and how I got her. But, I'm here, I'm here NOW. I'm present NOW. I LOVE NOW. My deepest quest is for more JOY, more Love and to be of service and Bliss all around. Love more, please love more. Love yourself more, love your family more, love the planet more. Love it all more.
We created an altar and adorned ourselves with oils honor of Laksmi it was full of the following:
(I did it all - coconut oil all in the hair, rose oil all over my body - you get the picture!)
• Hindu Goddess from Indonesia Statue from Bali
• Silver Ganesh from India
• Water silver offering bowl from Burma with water from Yosemite
• Necklaces that adorn her: yello hawaiian shell lei, lotus seed mala (from Tasahara), sandalwood, gold beads
• Crystals: amethyst, rose quartz, green calcite
• Pearl shell with Ecuadorian Palo Santo - Blister Pearl
• Jasmine incense
• Flowers: roses, ti leaf
• Candles: red, lavender, green (from crystal cave)
• Food offering: big leafy greens, rosemary, radish, lime, rice and coconut (pearl shell), Salt from Kaua and turmeric from Burma (pearl shell)
• Essential Oils: Rose and Coconut oil (body), Hawaiian kukui oil
• International coins
• Pearl bracelets
• Shells from Hawaii
• Pearl box
• Song used in meditation: Vidura Barrios - The Essence of Lakshmi - The bija mantra Om Shrim Mahalakshmyai Namaha
• Mudra card: Padma Mudra - Gesture of Lotus - Unconditional Love
• Goddesses Card - Knowledge Card (Paintings by Susan Seddon Boulet, Text by Michael Babcock): Epona
• Flower Energy Cards - Heart of Nature: Moschatel
• Caroline Myss - Archetype cards: The seeker
If you would like to create an altar to welcome in a new energy to assist you in your life, to help you move your life in a new direction, it is available to you. Use the ancient teachings to help you, support you and love you. Here are some tips to create your own Lakshmi altar:
Find a sacred space where you can place your altar
Adorn your altar with all the qualities of the Goddess you are worshipping.
Sit in meditation with her daily and chant her mantra, listen to her music and bring her gifts
Listen to the Laksmi mantra 108times
Journal what is coming up for you surrounding these areas of prosperity or abundance and welcome in the nourishment of Lakshmi
Here are the qualities and essences of Lakshmi
Seed Mantra: Shrim (pronounced: SHREEM)
Colors: Red, Hot Pink, Purple, White, Gold, Green
Day of the Week: Friday
Special Month: October
Scents: Sandalwood, Rose, Lotus, Jasmine
Flowers: Lotus, Roses
Offerings: Ripe fruits and vegetables (Lakshmi is a vegetarian!), coconuts, flowers, garlands of flowers, lotus seeds, sweets, sweet rice pudding, dates and figs, milk, ghee, honey, cowrie shells, coins, money (crisp bills), gold necklaces and bracelets, white and round real pearls, mother of pearl, seashells and other gifts from the ocean, sumptuous fabrics in her colors, bowl of rice and/or grains, turmeric, sandalwood paste, saffron and/or saffron paste, perfume, mirror, three dimensional or image of the Sri Yantra
Animals: Owl, Elephants and is frequently seen with GANESH!
Consort/Husband: Vishnu (I was told that if you have an altar to Lakshmi, you should always have an image/idol of Vishnu too or she will not stay!)
Mala: Lotus-Seed, Sphatik
Crystals: clear quartz, white and round real pearls, mother of pearls, amethyst
Mantra: there are many mantras to Lakshmi, but this is my favorite:
Om Shrim Maha Lakshmiyei Swaha [Om Shreem Mah-hah Lahk-shmee-yea Swah-hah]
Salutations to She who is that Great Abundance we salute and invoke!
Deva Premal sings this Mantra on her album Mantras for Precarious Times.
Blessings to you on your sacred journey of self discovery. May it be one of tremendous courage and gentle unfoldment. I am honored to be a part of it.
ALL MY LOVE,
Marni is a certified yoga teacher and Intuitive EnergyHealer and Ordained Spiritual Minister & faculty member of Sacred Path Healing School in Honolulu, Hawaii. (www.sacredpathhealing.com). Marni is divinely guided through her teachings of holistic healing and a fierce humbleness to the divine. With her Tibetan Buddhist background, yoga and Angelic guidance her healing sessions instill a grounded sense of peace and blessings. Marni founded Om & Roam, a website and blog dedicated to yoga & meditation, eco-chic adventure & lifestyle and spiritual retreats around the world. (www.omandroam.com). Marni also leads the Full Moon Women’s Sacred Sisterhood Circle at Maunalua Bay (in Hawaii Kai) - find out more at the Facebook Page: Sacred Moon Sisterhood -next Full Moon Gathering is October 16 at 6:30pm, 2016
"The insightful, healing wisdom of Marni truly became clear to me a week after my initial meeting with her, when changes she had put forth as coming absolutely manifested. She reminded me that I had the strength and courage to face these changes; in this, I was able to embrace them. Marni has a great strength to help us on our paths. I look forward to our next meeting. “ Jennifer Knight, San Francisco